i'm going to drive myself nuts with this unless i just accept it's all fucked and move on. all i can do is kick myself in the ass.
it's the same basic problem with the drum parts. i have them dumped to chrome tape or i have them in 128 kbps mp3. the tape versions are missing depth and definition, as you'd expect. the mp3 versions are a little sharper, but distort at the edges of the spectrum, as you'd expect. i sold the ry30 about 2003 to go backpacking in bc, which is probably the single dumbest thing i've ever done.
i could maybe mix them together, but i'm going to get funny phasing issues.
...and i might when i do the reconstructions....
...but for now i need to just get what i can off the tapes and move on. i'm the only person in the world that knows that drum snare is supposed to have 33% more reverb on the right channel.
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
i'm starting to think there's a conspiracy amongst the medical establishment in this town.
i went on saturday to fill my last refill on the emergency estrace prescription. they had 7 pills they could give me, and told me to come back on monday. i gave them a few extra days to make sure it was in. they didn't order it at all and told me to come back tomorrow...
i have a high expectation for incompetence in general, and am more than willing to assign it to the pharmacy at shopper's drug mart. but, there's a general pattern, here. did i upset somebody by going out of town for a rx? awww.
now, i have a new prescription and i haven't brought it in yet. if it's not there tomorrow, i'm going to have to take that prescription to a different pharmacy.
but i'm left wondering about collusion occurring. it's a small town....
then again, i know i get schizophrenic under stress. which is why i need to avoid stress. you dumb system, you.
we'll find out tomorrow...
i mean, they owe me 53 pills. i paid for them. i need to get them, eventually. but i need the refill by friday morning, too.
again: i think i might be dealing with a religious issue, which is the same problem i had with the local clinic. the main guy back there refuses to refer to me as jessica...
it seems to be a specifically muslim thing. i mean, i don't think one religion is more intolerant than the other with this. but it seems to be that some muslims in the community are having a hard time reconciling their religious value system with our dominant secular value system, and may be a little confused about what our law prioritizes when there's a conflict in place.
i don't have a lot of opposition to diversity. i don't think increasing immigration in a contracting economy is smart, but that has nothing to do with where people are coming from, it just has to do with the gross number of people in. given that we have little reason to think we can expect anything other than near zero to negative growth for the foreseeable future, i think restricting our immigration policy, overall, would be the preferable economic choice at this point in time. but that's an economic calculation, rather than a perspective on diversity.
however, i don't like this idea of religious people enforcing their value systems - regardless of the religion they're enforcing. and, i feel that may be a developing problem.
it's something that needs to be dealt with by the courts, who need to strongly enforce access to health care as a priority over religious objections to providing it. that law needs to be laid down, with extreme force.
i'd argue that it should be an offense that should necessitate a loss of license.
but we'll see what happens tomorrow.
i see that this is actually a current issue...
http://rabble.ca/columnists/2014/08/doctors-do-not-have-right-to-discriminate-and-deny-basic-health-care
ok. it turns out that this is under review, and a set of stricter guidelines is likely to come into force in 2015.
so, that's good news. i'd expect some court cases out of it...
the court isn't going to think in terms of balancing one right against another - it's repeatedly rejected that kind of thinking. but there is a contradiction.
the way i see it is that people make a choice to be a doctor, and in doing so they waive their right to religious objections. doctors work in the service industry. they're required to provide the services they're requested. and if they can't carry out those requests, they should find a different job that doesn't conflict with their religious views.
what that means is that i think being licensed to practice medicine in canada should be attached to upholding a secular value system. you'd have to rephrase that in terms of upholding science to make it legal, but it's the essential idea.
another way you could look at it is that, in canada, doctors are quasi-employees of the government. they're not technically. they run private businesses and cash in insurance hours. but it's being paid for by tax money.
as such, they really *ought* to be under the same legal purview as any other government body (and i don't know if they legally are). but, if they are, as they should be, the argument turns around the other way: conscientious objection becomes something that infringes on the patient's freedom of religion. which is kind of what i'm *feeling* about it...
when a doctor refuses treatment based on a religious view, they're enforcing their views on the patient as much as they're upholding their own. which is really what the actual problem is and really what needs to be addressed.
i mean, consider the issue applied to any other government service. could you imagine welfare refusing to hand out checks to single mothers because it feels their behaviour is sinful? city hall refusing to hand out drivers licenses to women because it believes women should stay at home? that's not the analogy people want to use because we have all these wonky class ideas. but, in canada, it's closer to the right one - whether it conforms to the legal technicality or not.
i went on saturday to fill my last refill on the emergency estrace prescription. they had 7 pills they could give me, and told me to come back on monday. i gave them a few extra days to make sure it was in. they didn't order it at all and told me to come back tomorrow...
i have a high expectation for incompetence in general, and am more than willing to assign it to the pharmacy at shopper's drug mart. but, there's a general pattern, here. did i upset somebody by going out of town for a rx? awww.
now, i have a new prescription and i haven't brought it in yet. if it's not there tomorrow, i'm going to have to take that prescription to a different pharmacy.
but i'm left wondering about collusion occurring. it's a small town....
then again, i know i get schizophrenic under stress. which is why i need to avoid stress. you dumb system, you.
we'll find out tomorrow...
i mean, they owe me 53 pills. i paid for them. i need to get them, eventually. but i need the refill by friday morning, too.
again: i think i might be dealing with a religious issue, which is the same problem i had with the local clinic. the main guy back there refuses to refer to me as jessica...
it seems to be a specifically muslim thing. i mean, i don't think one religion is more intolerant than the other with this. but it seems to be that some muslims in the community are having a hard time reconciling their religious value system with our dominant secular value system, and may be a little confused about what our law prioritizes when there's a conflict in place.
i don't have a lot of opposition to diversity. i don't think increasing immigration in a contracting economy is smart, but that has nothing to do with where people are coming from, it just has to do with the gross number of people in. given that we have little reason to think we can expect anything other than near zero to negative growth for the foreseeable future, i think restricting our immigration policy, overall, would be the preferable economic choice at this point in time. but that's an economic calculation, rather than a perspective on diversity.
however, i don't like this idea of religious people enforcing their value systems - regardless of the religion they're enforcing. and, i feel that may be a developing problem.
it's something that needs to be dealt with by the courts, who need to strongly enforce access to health care as a priority over religious objections to providing it. that law needs to be laid down, with extreme force.
i'd argue that it should be an offense that should necessitate a loss of license.
but we'll see what happens tomorrow.
i see that this is actually a current issue...
http://rabble.ca/columnists/2014/08/doctors-do-not-have-right-to-discriminate-and-deny-basic-health-care
ok. it turns out that this is under review, and a set of stricter guidelines is likely to come into force in 2015.
so, that's good news. i'd expect some court cases out of it...
the court isn't going to think in terms of balancing one right against another - it's repeatedly rejected that kind of thinking. but there is a contradiction.
the way i see it is that people make a choice to be a doctor, and in doing so they waive their right to religious objections. doctors work in the service industry. they're required to provide the services they're requested. and if they can't carry out those requests, they should find a different job that doesn't conflict with their religious views.
what that means is that i think being licensed to practice medicine in canada should be attached to upholding a secular value system. you'd have to rephrase that in terms of upholding science to make it legal, but it's the essential idea.
another way you could look at it is that, in canada, doctors are quasi-employees of the government. they're not technically. they run private businesses and cash in insurance hours. but it's being paid for by tax money.
as such, they really *ought* to be under the same legal purview as any other government body (and i don't know if they legally are). but, if they are, as they should be, the argument turns around the other way: conscientious objection becomes something that infringes on the patient's freedom of religion. which is kind of what i'm *feeling* about it...
when a doctor refuses treatment based on a religious view, they're enforcing their views on the patient as much as they're upholding their own. which is really what the actual problem is and really what needs to be addressed.
i mean, consider the issue applied to any other government service. could you imagine welfare refusing to hand out checks to single mothers because it feels their behaviour is sinful? city hall refusing to hand out drivers licenses to women because it believes women should stay at home? that's not the analogy people want to use because we have all these wonky class ideas. but, in canada, it's closer to the right one - whether it conforms to the legal technicality or not.
it was too cold to stand at a pay phone for an hour this morning....
and will be tomorrow, too. and probably also friday. it'll be nice on monday.
i still have over a month. and once i set this in motion there's not going to be any option but to work it out quickly. i mean, i'm not going to wait between attempts. i'm going to go back to camh and do it again the immediate moment i'm released, and i'm going to do it until they fill out the forms. they can't let that happen more than a few times...
i don't have any problems ruining everybody else's christmas, either. i mean, if you're still celebrating the birth of fictional characters, who can be bothered with your opinion? burn the tree already. yeesh.
bonus: if we were to collectively stop celebrating christmas, our entire economic system would collapse.
it's the wind rather than the temperature. it's actually been pleasant, temperature wise, all fall. it's hovering around 0 this week, which is fine. but the winds are coming in from the north at gale gusts and dropping the temperature to around -10. it's not fun to stand in...
it'll be nice when this pattern shifts.
i'm thinking the longer i leave it, the more likely i am to get an extension, as well. because they can tell me i still have a month. if i get an extension, it pushes the whole process forwards in time...that's what i really want...as far as i can push it...
and will be tomorrow, too. and probably also friday. it'll be nice on monday.
i still have over a month. and once i set this in motion there's not going to be any option but to work it out quickly. i mean, i'm not going to wait between attempts. i'm going to go back to camh and do it again the immediate moment i'm released, and i'm going to do it until they fill out the forms. they can't let that happen more than a few times...
i don't have any problems ruining everybody else's christmas, either. i mean, if you're still celebrating the birth of fictional characters, who can be bothered with your opinion? burn the tree already. yeesh.
bonus: if we were to collectively stop celebrating christmas, our entire economic system would collapse.
it's the wind rather than the temperature. it's actually been pleasant, temperature wise, all fall. it's hovering around 0 this week, which is fine. but the winds are coming in from the north at gale gusts and dropping the temperature to around -10. it's not fun to stand in...
it'll be nice when this pattern shifts.
i'm thinking the longer i leave it, the more likely i am to get an extension, as well. because they can tell me i still have a month. if i get an extension, it pushes the whole process forwards in time...that's what i really want...as far as i can push it...
so...
1) upload the two inrijected files. done.
2) ry30 ep.
3) compile a list of things added to the final mixes that are not in the cassette mixes.
4) decide how realistic reconstructing it is.
here's a random example: i recorded the sound of a printer sometime in 1998 and used it in the bridge of a song. there's no algorithm for that. the only way i could get the printer sound back to reintegrate into a new mix is by phase cancelling the drums, guitars and synths in the song. there's probably literally at least 100 further examples of this.
the other thing is that there's a lot of continuity between the tracks. so, they need to maintain a certain amount of flow in the process, which means while i may be able to reconstruct one song it's not useful unless i can reconstruct all six of the songs that flow in and out of it..
again: i don't think this is going to be realistic, and i'm going to have to live with either the compressed cd-r burn or the constructions i put together last year using eqs and mastering software. but i have to prove that to myself...
at least i'll have that ry30 ep, so you can hear what they sounded like, raw. yeah. yeah. yeah. that covers both options.
and, to capture that raw state, it's probably best if i mix them on the tascam. ok. i've got a plan...
1) upload the two inrijected files. done.
2) ry30 ep.
3) compile a list of things added to the final mixes that are not in the cassette mixes.
4) decide how realistic reconstructing it is.
here's a random example: i recorded the sound of a printer sometime in 1998 and used it in the bridge of a song. there's no algorithm for that. the only way i could get the printer sound back to reintegrate into a new mix is by phase cancelling the drums, guitars and synths in the song. there's probably literally at least 100 further examples of this.
the other thing is that there's a lot of continuity between the tracks. so, they need to maintain a certain amount of flow in the process, which means while i may be able to reconstruct one song it's not useful unless i can reconstruct all six of the songs that flow in and out of it..
again: i don't think this is going to be realistic, and i'm going to have to live with either the compressed cd-r burn or the constructions i put together last year using eqs and mastering software. but i have to prove that to myself...
at least i'll have that ry30 ep, so you can hear what they sounded like, raw. yeah. yeah. yeah. that covers both options.
and, to capture that raw state, it's probably best if i mix them on the tascam. ok. i've got a plan...
hearing the original ‘convoy’ for the first time
i thought i had lost it, but i've recently found the cover of this that i did in high school. i had no idea at the time that it was an actual song, i thought homer was just making it up as he went.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rTTC3M6lh4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rTTC3M6lh4
updating inrijected (inri022)
so, i've added four more silly minutes to this silly release of silly rejected outtakes from the late 90s...
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrijected
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrijected
convoy
originally constructed in april, 1998 on some kind of forgotten dare. reconstructed from source on dec 10, 2014.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/convoy
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/convoy
i will say i was right to roll the
highs on the remaster, as they're higher on the tape, but it's more than
just that. there's clipping in the original files from digitizing it in
the red. the extra treble is closer, but it brings in that sort of
tinny compressed sound on the guitars that you get from running too much
digital compression. &etc.
agh.
fuck it. i did this already. i need to do the listening test, but with the intent on minimal replacements.
i also think it would help if i compiled a list of missing digital additions *before* i start mixing anything, so i know what i can do and what i can't.
again: this is why i wanted the reinterpretation, because i knew i wanted to remix it from the source but knew i couldn't recreate the original mixes. so, there's every reason to go to town, but then the old mixes need to be maintained....
i made the right choice in the first place. no use in second guessing.
but this record-keeping is useful, anyways. so i should do it.
perfectionists don't like situations without perfect answers :\
it torments us. we keep coming back to them.
i really wish i hadn't compressed the source when i was 17, but i did, and i can't undo and have to live with it.
first off, i actually need to compile my little ry30 ep and see what i can do with it. that will actually help...
i'm going to have to try the phase reversal, though. even if there's relics...well, it might be instructive, actually. but a lot of these effects are relatively short. if i can get them mostly out, it might be better than what i have...
fuck it. i did this already. i need to do the listening test, but with the intent on minimal replacements.
i also think it would help if i compiled a list of missing digital additions *before* i start mixing anything, so i know what i can do and what i can't.
again: this is why i wanted the reinterpretation, because i knew i wanted to remix it from the source but knew i couldn't recreate the original mixes. so, there's every reason to go to town, but then the old mixes need to be maintained....
i made the right choice in the first place. no use in second guessing.
but this record-keeping is useful, anyways. so i should do it.
perfectionists don't like situations without perfect answers :\
it torments us. we keep coming back to them.
i really wish i hadn't compressed the source when i was 17, but i did, and i can't undo and have to live with it.
first off, i actually need to compile my little ry30 ep and see what i can do with it. that will actually help...
i'm going to have to try the phase reversal, though. even if there's relics...well, it might be instructive, actually. but a lot of these effects are relatively short. if i can get them mostly out, it might be better than what i have...
when
i compare the three sources (cd rip from mp3s, "remaster", original
tape) it's no comparison - the tape demolishes the other two. plus, now
that it's digitized i can play with the source...
further, i'm realizing i dumped far more to tape than i thought i did.
i feel i don't really have a choice but to go through it all very carefully and update what i can update.
but i'm not going to be able to tempt myself from fucking with it, and i want to not do that.....yet.....
further, i'm realizing i dumped far more to tape than i thought i did.
i feel i don't really have a choice but to go through it all very carefully and update what i can update.
but i'm not going to be able to tempt myself from fucking with it, and i want to not do that.....yet.....
no, i can't phase cancel the vocals out because i compressed the files before i burned them.
i guess the thing is that i'm 40 some releases in now and these two releases (inri005, inri007) are the only things that aren't available anywhere in their original forms - or with extremely minor edits. i know i'm going to redo them. so, why not just put them up as they were? and the reason is that they didn't sound very good as they were. but i need to reconvince myself of this.
if i'm doing anything further to them, though, this is the time.
there were a few files i had to accept compromises on. maybe if i could overlay a guitar part or two...
i'll see.
i guess the thing is that i'm 40 some releases in now and these two releases (inri005, inri007) are the only things that aren't available anywhere in their original forms - or with extremely minor edits. i know i'm going to redo them. so, why not just put them up as they were? and the reason is that they didn't sound very good as they were. but i need to reconvince myself of this.
if i'm doing anything further to them, though, this is the time.
there were a few files i had to accept compromises on. maybe if i could overlay a guitar part or two...
i'll see.
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