but, i stand by the view that a credit check is essentially useless for low income people.

you could have spotless credit. if you're low income, and you get fired, you're fucked. you could default. you could get evicted for non-payment. and, it wouldn't have anything to do with your existing credit. it's just a function of being poor.

it works the other way, too: you could have terrible credit, because you were fired, and you were evicted. you could have defaulted. you might live on social assistance, or you might have just had a bad year. it doesn't mean you're not getting money in NOW.

a credit check is designed for middle income people making middle income investments. it's an abuse of the procedure to use it as a means test to allow or disallow low income people into housing - because it's as likely to be wrong in it's conclusions as it is to be correct.

...and i don't want to hang out with boring bourgeois assholes or pretentious hipster dipshits. at all.

if i actually had a government or office job, i'd be the one that never goes to staff parties and eats lunch at my desk. because, i really don't want to hang out with you.

if it comes down to it, i would rather be unemployed and stay in than be employed and not be able to go out because i have to work.

ok, here's another idea: parking.

there's some bigger apartment buildings running around 760-775. i'd be permanently defaulting on night-life to take that; i'd be falling from $200/month spending to under $100/month spending and, with the exchange, it would really leave me without the ability to go out very often. once a month. i could gamble on settling down a little anyways, but i'm not comfortable with defaulting on the option. and, rent isn't where i want the funds to disappear to.

but, if i get a dedicated parking space - which i will never use. i don't even have a license. - i could rent it out for what looks like more than $50/month. all of a sudden, that looks affordable. and, if i could just let the building deal with it maybe they'd cut the rent down by the difference...

on top of that, i can always *ask* about separating the hydro. then, the 775 potentially falls to 700. and, if i explain the scenario, i might get a reasonable reaction.

a big one bedroom apartment on the 6th or 7th floor with decent anti-smoke insulation (no balcony) would be a definite improvement. if it only costs me $30/month, after everything, that's a positive investment.

i can make some calls tomorrow.

i'm done for the night. i need to focus on the discography for a few hours.

but, what you're saying there - that attitude of yours, those beliefs, that perspective - is exactly why i've been speaking out against you.

1. atheist speaks out against the oppression of theist doctrines.
2. theists oppress atheist.
3. atheist says "see?".
4. theists oppress atheist.
5. goto 3. 

you don't even have to give me hemlock. it's as old as fucking time. 

it's not irony. it's not prophesy. it's just obvious. and, i'm aware that you really won't get it if you're stuck in the fucking cave of religious ignorance.

but, i can hardly stop saying "see?".

see?

i'm also going to have to see if i can try and contact some of these property owners directly and explain to them that this management layer isn't just wasting them money but is actually preventing them from bringing in reliable and quality tenants.

i've had problems here, but it's because the family that lives here are idiots. most property owners would side with the tenants that want to mitigate smoke damage and cat feces on their property, not the ones that want to maximize the damage to it. nothing makes sense, here.

the truth is that i've treated this place better than the family that owns it does - and i've only come into conflict when i've insisted that they treat it better than they do.

i made a few calls this morning, but nothing much came up over night. there's one option that's a little more than i want but might be better - it's up a few floors, and the smoke issues might be better. but, it was up on short notice and i'm supposed to call back on friday.

i'm going to get something to eat and then give myself a few more hours. but, i'm going to need to pay my rent this evening if nothing else comes up before 17:00 - and then i'm looking for december 1st.

i've also decided that i'm going to get the appeals process in motion once i pay the rent.

the core loops involved in clarity were initially created in the late summer of 2001, with the intent of being the opening sequence in a new inri project (with the long kicked-around working title of 'trinri'). while i had fairly firmly put the inri moniker down around my 19th birthday (late 1999), i was also coming out of a lengthy "serious music" phase and was getting a desire to write in a more structured, synth-pop type direction, as i had for years previously. this urge was happening about the same as i was being coerced into starting a rock band with some high school acquaintances.

around october, i started working on a separate noise project that was meant to splice harsh electronic noise with anarchist politics. this produced two tracks at the time, which are now available as a short single as inri032. at the time, it wasn't clear to me where those ideas would lead.

by november it was clear that the rock band wasn't happening, but it turned out the singer had tastes that correlated reasonably well with what i was thinking about creating for the trinri project. these two projects consequently merged into rabit is wolf, and the material i was kicking around for use in trinri ended up becoming the core of what rabit is wolf became.

as i was recording parts for clarity, i ended up reusing ideas from the noise project. i further reused those ideas in constructing a 2004 noise collage for inclusion on the record that finally came out of the noise project. both noise collages are present in order to comprehensively explore the ideas existing within clarity.

zen was recorded with sean over december, 2001. i have chosen not to complete a version of the wave (inri053) that was also being discussed at the time, but would have fit into this release well, conceptually.

clarity was completed (with vocals) over january, 2002. the nature of rabit (along with the songs i had written for it) took a sharp turn towards folk almost immediately. this collection is consequently quite different than the official rabit demo, which is much more song-oriented. over the years, i've always wanted to have a rabit release that was darker, noisier and more chaotic and am glad to have it in the form of this ep-single, which could be viewed as a secondary demo. put another way, this is the comprehensive representation of the second (electro/noise/industrial) incarnation of rabit is wolf.

however, there are two factors complicating clarity as a solely rabit is wolf production. the first is that sean was never really happy with the result - a shame as i consider his vocal performance and lyrics to be the best of the songs we did together. the second is that i always felt the track was "mine" and should have had an instrumental mix. that is, i've always regretted not saving an instrumental mix.

for these reasons, i've revisited the track as an instrumental and left two snapshots - 11/2001 and 01/2002. this second snapshot (which is to be considered a final mix) will also appear on my upcoming 6th record, dated to the end of 2002.

recorded in late 2001 and early 2002. track 6 was constructed in may, 2004 out of files recorded 1999-2001. tracks 1-4 were reconstructed over october, 2014. final mixes were finished on october 18, 2014. disc closed on oct 30, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

the 2014 instrumental version appears on my sixth record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2

the 2002 vocal mix appears on the rabit is wolf demo:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/rabit-is-wolf

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2002, 2004, 2014, 2017). 

credits

released February 1, 2002

j - guitars (electric, acoustic, nylon), mandolin, sequencers, synthesizers, drum & melodic programming, electric air reed organ, digital piano, flute, drum kit, sampling, digital and analog effects processing, digital wave editing, sound design (loops, granular synthesis, noise generators), production

sean - vocals/lyrics (3,5), harmonica (4,5) 

 

hi.

my landlord is taking over my apartment for personal use. i need to be
out in a few weeks. you seem to be building a monopoly on vacant
spaces in this city, and you won't rent to me because i've defaulted
on my student loans. this is effectively cutting off my right to
housing.

but, this is not a good reason not to rent to me.

my loan default is a real thing, this is true. however, because i live
on disability, there is essentially no way for the state to collect on
it. i have done my due diligence and applied for loan forgiveness, and
they have told me that although i am permanently disabled i am not
"severely" permanently disabled, which is some kind of kafkaesque
nonsense. but, what it means is that, while the loan will continue to
collect interest for the rest of my life, this has no actual effect on
my income.

the fact is that i get around $1200/month from the government, every
month. this income cannot be touched by any collection agency. nor is
it under any threat of market failure - i cannot get fired, i cannot
get laid off, and i cannot get outsourced. if you were to compare me
to a wage worker, and you were to measure my value as a tenant solely
on my ability to pay, you'd have to conclude i'm a far safer gamble
for the reason that i'm immune to market forces.

i understand that you don't want to rent to people who manage money
poorly. but, student loan defaults are going to be an increasingly
common fact of life in this city, and if you are going to command so
much of the empty rental space, you should really be approaching the
situation a little differently.

i have been in this unit for four and a half years and i have never
paid my rent late. these payments will come in every month into
perpetuity. it makes no sense to deny me housing for this reason -
because i am a model tenant.

j

i want to be clear about how this company works.

let's say you went to school for a few years, came out with a degree in sociology - which means you get to be a manager at mcdonalds. but, let's say you actually are a manager at mcdonalds. so, you're working a 40+ hour work week and pulling in something close to $1700 a month. but, it took you a while to get there, and in the process you defaulted on your loan.

you have a steady job. a little authority, even. you want a $900 apartment. and, why not? you can afford it.

this management company will not rent to you due to the default. it doesn't matter that you're making more than enough money. it's an inflexible position across the board.

and, they seem to be in charge of at least half of the vacant properties in the city - properties that should be occupied by low income people that probably don't have very good credit.

is this even a human rights violation? i think there's a good argument for it. but, that's not exactly at the top of my mind, right now.

i could maybe file once i find somewhere.

that apartment i went to see was a little small, but i expected that.

the two reasons i couldn't consider it were as follows:

1) it had a really big window on the front entrance. i want the unit up a few floors to cut off broken window access. the less windows, the better. this place had smash and grab written all over it.

2) the front entrance was a shared porch with the unit beside it. there would have been somebody chain smoking a foot in front of my door.

this is windsor.

it's becoming clear that i'm going to have to appeal, probably as soon as i get the review in the mail.

i'll need to pay rent on wednesday if i don't find anything tomorrow, which at this point is pretty much certain.

i'm also realizing that it's less that the city doesn't have rental spaces - it does - and more that the market has been taken over by this management company. what happened to windsor, that had such low prices four years ago? marda. this company is inflating prices by introducing a management layer. and, they're refusing to rent to anybody that has defaulted on their student loans. i'm almost willing to argue it's predatory. but, somebody needs to step in and break them up...

if you're a building manager, you really ought to separate yourselves from this company: they are leaving spaces empty over issues that do not affect a tenant's ability to pay, and cutting off large segments of the market. it's not sustainable. it's just going to land people with steady incomes in the shelters.

and, the city should be questioning if they have too much market power and trying to find ways to break them up.

i'm sleepier than i should be. but, hopefully i can get some progress down tonight.

today didn't yield much - i'm going to look at something tonight that's a bit smaller but would give me an extra $50+ in my pocket a month, maybe $100 in the summer, but he got really apprehensive when i told him i'm on odsp. people have a lot of prejudices about this, and i'm fully aware of the problem of productionism, especially in a post-industrial area like this where there's so much unemployment, and it's created these hierarchies of exclusion. it's up to me to convince him that this attitude is just literal stupidity - i cannot work by doctor's order, and i have the safest check in town - but it's not the easiest thing to do. you'd think self-interest would be easier to enforce, but conservatism goes out of it's way to enforce irrationality and anti-intellectualism. i can't get fired. i'm guaranteed rent. pull your head out of your calvinist ass and recognize the superior tenancy value that i offer...

i have an appointment in the morning, but i don't even know if i'm going to go. i didn't realize that it's on the ground level. i'm curious, though.

the review was dismissed, as expected. i gave them a call about the leave date, and it hasn't changed. the review claims that i didn't raise the issue of 83(3)(c) - that's just false. i can think of at least twice that i raised it. so, the adjudicator seems like she realizes she's wrong, and is trying to back track by pretending i didn't raise the point. that's why she's not a judge, right? but, i can't review a second time.

unfortunately, the adjudicator has handed me a perfect case for appeal: she agrees that i would be right if i raised the point, then claims i didn't raise the point. but, i did raise the point. and, we can check the audio. so, now i have no choice but to appeal.

so, i'm considering launching an immediate appeal when the documents get here, just to get it out of the way. i can drop it at any time, i believe. i wasn't expecting a stay on review, but i wasn't expecting such a quick response, either. now that it's in front of me, and it's just wrong, i kind of feel like i have to act as quickly as possible.

i left a message with legal aid as well. i just want to go in and talk it over, make sure i understand the process and i didn't overlook something that's going to screw me over in the end.

but, i think that's it for listings, for the day. i should be more optimistic: if i find something i can get a appointment for every single day, i'm making good progress.

i'm going to eat. i finished the facebook section yesterday, and should close some discs tonight. i could ship tomorrow.

that was a bust.

the ad said $725 all inclusive. it's $725 + hydro. so, i'm looking at $750. he was representing a firm, and i wasn't going to take him down. this is on the extreme limits of what i can consider. is it better?

well, the existing tenant is a heavy smoker, and the apartment was full of cat shit. she's moving downstairs.

so, i would be moving into a unit with a heavy smoker downstairs that doesn't have a problem living in cat shit. that's not better - it's a $80/month rent increase with no benefit to me.

if it was just the habits of the previous tenant to deal with, i could air the place out. but, this is just a recipe for conflict. we're going to start fighting from day one. i could not get along with this person well enough to live in the same building as them.

my self-interest is not in moving into this unit. i'll have to keep looking. and, i now have fifteen days left to avoid an appeal.

today is a listings day. but i need to shower, first. yuck.

so, again: should i have taken the pay out? if i leave, i just lost hundreds of dollars i could have taken, right?

no.

if i had signed an agreement to move out, then i'd have to move out - i'd have no options to appeal. maybe i'd find something better. maybe i wouldn't.

and, i did look - i couldn't find anything better.

this particular unit came up the same day as the trial. i couldn't have organized this.

if i had organized a move-in before hand, would it have made sense to take the cash? sure. but, i didn't know that, then. i could have agreed to move and then ended up with nowhere to go. that's not rational self-interest, it's risk - and i'm exceedingly risk averse.

i would argue that it's far more rational to lose the pay out than to take a risk of ending up optionless. i guess you could have that argument. but, you'd be warping logic around dramatically to do it.

on top of that, you have to remember that i still think they're acting in bad faith and i'm still intending to sue when i figure it out. so, i have a plan to get those funds, in the end.

you can argue i got unlucky. i might even agree with you. but, i made the rational choice in the context of maximizing self-interest.

i got something back from the one i'm most interested in.

monday viewing, apparently.

like i say: i need to better my situation in order to do this. this does it.

i've been saying for years i'm waiting the existing tenants out, and i am, but that in itself is only proving so worthwhile. even if the guy upstairs keels over tomorrow, and they sell next week, i still have to deal with the fact that the neighbours are smoking outside my window, the cats in the neighbourhood, etc.

i thought i got rid of a problem upstairs when the three pack a day smokers moved out, but the lady that moved in sits on her porch and smokes all day, which means i lost all the windows in the front - and the air return along with it.

there's no solution to the roaches, or the gas smell, which is coming back again with the cold weather. there's some kind of mildew in the walls. the place really ought to be condemned. i mean, that's why it's cheap, right? that's the point. but, i can maybe do a bit better...

i got a lot of work done down here. and i would tough it out if i wasn't being coerced. but, maybe it makes sense, anyways.

if they are actually moving her mother in here - and i doubt it - i pity her for what she will endure down here.

if they put it on the market, which i'm sure they will, i'll recoup more funds through legal action. and, these are funds i should be able to keep.

today is a discography day. i'll get back to looking tomorrow.

well, i'm done for the day and what did i find? this was pretty exhaustive on my googling, i must add.

1) exactly one space that is a little bit more than i want to pay, but is also substantially better than this space. non smoking. up a few floors, to get some fresh air. a little closer to the tunnel. adt. a tub, so i can shave. etc. i'll need to close the deal, but i would move to this place if i could - and especially if i can shave a  few dollars off. i'm waiting for a response from an ad without a phone number.

2) exactly one space that is a little bit cheaper than i'm paying here, and is comparable in terms of size, although it is one bedroom rather than two. depending on layout, that might even be better. i tried to call three numbers and am not convinced anyone of them are correct. this place may be smoky. i'd have to think about it.

3) exactly one space that seems like a lateral movement - but this may also include smoke issues. i'll have to look at this, but i'd probably turn it down.

4) several ads that were about fifty dollars out of my price range, and that i'd have to try and low ball.

if the first one doesn't work out, i can't state with certainty that something else will come up before it's time to stall via appeal. i'm just hoping the review body solves that problem the easy way.

i'm going to spend the morning looking at listings and maybe make some calls around noon, if i find something.

but, the easy restatement of the logic is simply as follows:

1) can i find somewhere better? then, i'll take it.
2) if i can't find somewhere better, i'm hardly going to move to somewhere worse, so i'll appeal.

i do need to acknowledge that i am looking, though. that's a difference. it could take months to find something, but i am intending to eventually leave.

all of this other stuff is stalling, really.

i'm going to make my decisions based on what's best for me, not what's best for the people around me.

and, fuck you if you don't like it.

it's 5:30.

i'm still awake.

when i turned the machine back on, i realized that the internet was randomly unplugged. that's quite bizarre. i was only gone for about an hour. if i get set up for something over usage while i was out mailing the review, it's documented over my camera.

the review got mailed. these things are low probability. but i think it's a necessity to try it. if i'm lucky, i'll trigger something.

stalling is a valid tactic, right now.

i spent the afternoon doing laundry and cleaning, and will have a smoothie and take a shower before i try to sleep.

so, what am i doing?

the review process has to unfold before i consider an appeal. but, this has to revolve around the market.

if i find something comparable, or maybe better (third floor would be better - no cats at the window), i would have to move at it. the thing is that i think that this is unlikely to the point of fanciful - i'm probably going to have to wait for months and months before something comes up on the market that i can accept as lateral. and, then what?

my options are very restricted by my gear and my income. it's a contradiction: i need a place big enough and safe enough for my gear as the absolute number one priority, but i also need it under $700. and, i can't and don't want to go to fucking work.

i moved 700 km to take this place. it was very hard to find. i didn't intend to move out less than five years later. and, it could take me a really long time to find a suitable replacement.

if i don't or can't find a suitable replacement, i'm going to have to go to the court of appeal as a stalling tactic. i have until around the 20th. i can't and won't move thousands of dollars of gear into a place it will be stolen, and i can't afford more than $700/month.

the likely reality is that i'm almost certainly stuck here. and. i'm not concerned about what the people around me think about it.

but, i have to look....

in the mean time, i have to find a way to multitask, too. maybe if i do one release a day, it'll keep me moving.

they claim it was a bureaucratic error.

that's the kind of thing that's a piss-off. i don't know what i'm doing, yet, but i just blew a week of opportunity because an incompetent judge couldn't push a fucking button.

let's start with the review and go from there.

i'm sorry, buyer, but i can't ship until i know where i'm living, or at least i know what i'm doing. i won't even be able to think about it. i don't multitask well...

well, then.

the landlord and tenant board does not have any record of this decision at all - as far as they are concerned, the decision remains outstanding.

i need to send copies of the documents to the london, ontario bureau.

it's possible that the adjudicator got eager and mailed the documents without sending it to the rotary. that would be kind of suspicious on her behalf, frankly. i think that would be a pretty big deal. i'd have to look into that.

i'm still leaning heavily on balls out fraud. and, i don't know how big a deal this is - beyond being able to cite it in future harassment proceedings.

it's the kind of thing that makes everything else look really bad, too. if i can demonstrate a fake notice, i can demonstrate complicity in the death of jfk.

i'm in a situation to cause them a real mess. it's their own fault.

i can file an appeal with the appeals court. it could take eighteen months to two years. that stays the order - it's a two year lease.

mom is two years away from retirement, and she was supposed to go to the home after that. well, it's what they said.

dad is probably two years away from dead.

and, then they probably sell - if not before then.

i have 30 days from the 23rd (presuming this is all legit) to serve to the landlord, then ten days to file the appeal. i should be able to get the internal review done quickly if i send it this morning. then, i'll serve them before the 20th in their actual damned mailbox. i can get the files to the court before the first.

i'm going to have to spend some time every other day looking at options. if something workable comes up, i'll have to call. but, the point is that there isn't anything workable out there - that i'm stuck here.

it's not like i'm acting in bad faith, either. i know they're full of shit. sure, i'm stalling, but this is what they get.

there's a far easier point for appeal, as well - the claim that the tenant has the burden of proof, here. that's utterly ridiculous. yet, there it is.

if you make a claim in court, you always have the responsibility to demonstrate it. it doesn't matter what the claim is. the presumption of innocence is consequently merely a rule of thumb. the judge may have confused herself over this.

(if this is a real case).

if the state is accusing you of guilt, you have the presumption of innocence. but, if the state is accusing you of innocence, you have the presumption of guilt. if the state is accusing you of tiredness, you have the presumption of awakeness. & etc. it's not some moral principle. it's an application of the scientific method; a kind of null hypothesis - you start with the reversal of x and you determine if there's enough evidence to overturn x.

so, when the writer of this paper puts together the words that the tenant needs to show on balance of probability that the landlord's claim is false, she's not understanding what those words mean - that only makes sense in the context of reversing the null hypothesis. there's no balance of probabilities in overturning an assumption - it's by counter-example. and, that's impossible.

so, no wonder she didn't consider the right part of the law - she has her burden of proof backwards.

the idea that what somebody says in court should be treated as true unless it can be proven false is some kind of weird, classist backwardsness, or...i don't even know how to get my head around it.

if the tenant had the burden of proof, then the landlord would literally be able to make anything at all up and dare the tenant to disprove it. that's not how our legal system works, or has ever worked - and hopefully it will never work that way. that's not a justice system....

i'm leaning strongly towards "fake". a few more hours...

on second thought, if this is a real order, i'm going to challenge it.

The tenant did not relate the particulars of what happened but only mentioned that she was verbally threatened with eviction.

this is completely false - i provided the context of the previous court process. we spent quite a while discussing this.

given that the finding that there was no ulterior motive was made without considering the facts, and even attempting to ignore them by pretending no discussion was had, that's an error in law, and i can and will appeal this. that was the most important part of the case, and she pretended it didn't happen in order to hand wave away a s. 83.

she also claims one of the other emails didn't state a threat of eviction but only a "threat", which is what i was getting at with wilful blindness - as though it would be ok to threaten me, otherwise, and as though it doesn't have any effect on the case, right? i can dress a few of these up as errors given the first point.

i'm extremely skeptical, right now. this is clearly shoddy. and, that website is supposed to pull right from the database: it should update the same time that it prints.

i seriously may have received a false order.

i'm just comparing to the previous one. i mean, i don't know...

1) there is no stamp on the order.
2) the previous ruling took two weeks. this one took two business days. i'm happy to get a quick ruling, too, mind you, but, still.
3) these people are horribly dishonest. i'm absolutely certain they opened the letter for the previous decision. i was actually expecting something funny, here.
4) it's not on the web page.
5) "this order contains all of the reasons in this matter and no further reasons will issue.". there is then no "reasons" section. ?.
6) the signature is curious to say the least.

i dunno. very fishy. i must call.

this is what the website should look like:

this is what it does look like:

would they do this? yeah. and, they're in huge trouble, if they did.

regarding the discography, this means i'm on indefinite hold again until i can at least get my head around what my options are.

well, this is unusual.

i have a letter in my box, but the online tool claims that the case has not yet been adjudicated. i'll have to call in the morning.

it's dated to monday, which is when it should have been finished. there is a good possibility that there's a database error. there's a good possibility that it's a forgery, given that these people are persistent frauds and liars.

the ruling is ordering me to vacate by december 1st.

however, it didn't address my legal concern under 83 (3)(c):

(c) the reason for the application being brought is that the tenant has attempted to secure or enforce his or her legal rights;

this is supposed to be an automatic stop. and, it doesn't rely upon the question of good faith - even if the applicant is found to be in good faith (as they were, and as they may be), this is supposed to halt the proceedings in their tracks.

she did a balancing under 83(2) and she did it correctly. but she seems to be in error in not in contemplating 83(3) at all.

that said, she did state that the ruling of good faith is with no ulterior motive, and that would make it difficult for me to appeal - despite it obviously being wrong, and my case being quite well presented. she seems to have simply discarded the evidence i provided to her. that's why you don't want to put things in front of judges if you don't have to, they can decide what they want to accept and what they don't want to accept.

i might get lucky on finding a failing student that needs out for december 1st.

i disagree with this ruling - i think it was obvious that they're retaliating, and i made my case as best as was possible. i will be vigilant in suing them when i find out that their mother is not moving in - and she isn't. but, outside of verifying that this is the real case in the morning, i don't see a further course of action.

should i have carried on with the previous suit? it wouldn't have mattered much. they would have done this, anyways - it's why they were harassing me for months, because they wanted me out. and, if she was going to discard the evidence i gave her, she was going to discard the evidence i didn't give her - it wouldn't have made the case stronger than it already was. i gave her eight eviction attempts, and she just said the landlord has the right to hand out the notices - that's indescribable except through wilful blindness, when the ninth is an n12 on the same day as a previous case ended. if i had won the harassment suit, she'd just have said it doesn't matter because it's a different suit. and, how do you prove this beyond circumstantially, short of a recording? you have to rely on the judge to draw obvious inferences, and this one refused to do that. also, i wouldn't have been able to keep the money, remember - i'd have to give it back to odsp. it was about trying to stop the persistent harassment by standing up for myself, not about turning a profit. the other option was to keep getting harassed, which is a non-choice. and, while it failed, it provided me with the documentation i required for the case. i think i made the right choice in hoping it would blow over - if i had won, i'd have gained nothing of value because they were too fucking stubborn to listen (that was the sad realization i had to grapple with.). and, of course, i couldn't let the situation fester, i couldn't let them keep harassing me to try and push me out until they succeeded, i had to react in some sense.

this is a part of the law that shouldn't exist. but, it does exist. and, i got a shitty judge that either didn't want to see the obvious or didn't care what the obvious was. the next step has to be for me to find somewhere else to stay, and then sue them for damages and dishonesty once i get there - and that's going to be expensive on their behalf, you can be sure.

i'm also going to have to start from square one with the air quality. ugh.

i don't work well under pressure. i day dream. i procrastinate.

i'm a shitty employee, and not ashamed about it.

i'm more interested in creating realities where people can create free of coercive influence than i am in contorting myself into some mental gymnastic that sees value in extorting people for profit...

...and i needed a nap.

that's what happens when i'm under pressure: i get sleepy.

it's consistent, actually. predictable. dead line tomorrow? big project due in the morning? i'm probably snoozing somewhere. and, i'm not going to pretend i really care when i wake up, either.

call me depressed, but i don't want your drugs. i want to abolish the conditions that you think spur productivity, because they don't - they just create unnecessary stress.

still no ruling.

i hope the judge doesn't think she's doing me a favour in stretching the ruling out, if she's going to give me 11 days at the end. i haven't done a thing to prepare to move. and, i'm not going to do so until i get the court order - because it's not the landlord that has the legal authority, here, it's the judge.

if she's stalling into november to give me until december 1st, i guess that's a net benefit. but, if she thinks she's just giving me extra days, she's misinterpreting my grasp of the scenario: i'm in this to win, outright.

i'm going to try to get back to filing, but i might fall back asleep. we'll see.

apologies to the guy with the order, but i'm kind of useless at the moment.

and, i'll remind you that if i win i will be immediately countersuing. if it's into november, that's another $670.

i think i should take it as a good sign that i don't have the ruling in, yet.

i'm not talking about the mail; i can check the database in real time. she said tuesday or wednesday.

it's thursday afternoon; she's taking her time. i couldn't imagine why she would need to do that if she wasn't researching, and that only really make sense if she's dismissing, or at least sees an excellent reason to consider it.

there's another interpretation, though. the landlord decided to argue with the judge at the last minute about how she has "property rights" (she doesn't.), and tried to guilt her over her mom (i think she's full of shit.). that was stupid all around, and especially stupid in a case like this where the judge has reason to doubt  her - to risk that the judge might conclude the complainant was essentially trying to sucker her into a quick ruling is another thing she didn't have to do, but did. if the judge comes around to my side, she may interact with that memory very poorly. but, she also might just be trying to smack a little but of humility down. she'll do this at her leisure, miss fucking pleb.

but, i didn't quite get that from the judge. she was haughty, but empathetic. that's a good judge. and, it's probably just taking a long time due to a good judge doing some good judging.

or, i hope, anyways.

that migraine set me back more than 24 hours. but, i've finally got this done.

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inri013: written and demoed from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. sequenced on jan 6-7, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. released jan 7, 2016. finalized on july 29, 2016. symph001.

inri016: created in the summer of 1998. released as a standalone ep on nov 16, 2013. audio permanently closed on oct 12, 2016. release finalized on oct 27, 2016.

inri019: written and demoed from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in january, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. compiled on nov 13, 2016. sequenced on nov 22-24, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on nov 24, 2016. release finalized on nov 27, 2016. symph002.

inri029: recorded over 1997-1999. constructed in this form in june, 1999. published in november, 2013. aborted early version added as a hidden track on sept 13, 2017; release consequently finalized. symph003.

inri039: this was constructed over a little more than a month: from 7/7-8/20, 2000. it seems to have been recombined into one track around 2007 but has otherwise not been modified since it was completed. first released as an ep in jan 2014. release finalized as symph004 on oct 8, 2017.

inri046: written in the spring of 2001. lent out for a different project in jan, 2004. reconstructed in the first quarter of 2006, especially over march. the vst mix was added on jan 10, 2015 and the two guitar mixes were added on may 29, 2015. finalized as symph005 on oct 15, 2017.

inri047: written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. expanded and finalized over oct 15-16, 2017.

inri053: written late 2001 and early 2002. this file is ripped from a cd-r that was burnt around 2002, as that was the option that would produce the most accurate reproduction of the original composition. republished without modification in 2014. on oct 23, 2017, the poem was added to the disc as an introduction to the track and the disc was subsequently closed and finalized as symph006 and lp012.

originally created from 1996-2002. this compilation is dated to jan 25, 2002. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on oct 26, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

credits

released January 25, 2002

j - guitars (electric, classical, acoustic), effects, ebow, bass, mandolin, synthesizers, electric piano, piano, organ, vocals, drum kit, drum programming, orchestral & other sequencing, flute, cool edit synthesis, sound raider, sampling, light-wave synthesis, generative synthesis, generative percussion, noise generators, sound design, loops, tapes, found sounds (washing machine), metronome, windows 95 sound recorder, treatments, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, coughs, a broken tape deck, a broken equalizer, composition, production

the rendered electronic orchestras variously include synthesizers, clavinet, kalimba, nylon guitar, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, bass guitar, piano, banjo, electronic drums, pc card, violin, cello, bamboo flute, flute, viola, soprano saxophone, tuba, trumpet, organ, orchestra hit, pizzicato strings, synth pads, contrabass, tubular bells and music box. 

 

 https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/symphonic-works-volume-1

no.

i need recovery from the migraine.

hopefully, it's just a nap.

i'm wasting days, but what can i do? this is medical. i had a headache for hours. i do feel better, but i'm drained, and i need sleep.

you know, i'm not sure what i meant to say, there. i didn't think i was in aphasia, but that was some nonsense, alright.

i spent the morning cleaning. i had to stop to eat. still no response.

i want to get the temperature down in here and the air turned over so i can turn the heat on. it's not ideal, but it's the consequence of the air and the smoke - i either need the windows open or the heat on. i can't keep the windows closed with the heat off. not long term, anyways. it just gets awful in here. the windows will probably be open all night. and, it's going to be cold tonight. it's necessary.

i've got some typing done.  i want to get a lot more done....

that was quick. i dunno/

i gotta clean down here. i suspect they're to get to me. the windows are open...

aura hit on wednesday, this week.

thursday last week.

friday the previous week.

it doesn't seem as bad. or, at least, not yet. it's just blurry. flashing lights. it's a mushroom trip without the buzz, basically.

guess i need to stop for a bit. fuck. i'm going to go right for the aspirin, this time...

yesterday was a wash.

i had to verbally close the string of discs i just finalized for the vlog, and it took me all morning. then, i spent the afternoon bitching with the landlord, who tried to create a situation out of nonsense and force an entry into the apartment due to an emergency based on an email from 2015.

their only defence is an inability to read. as half true as that may be, i do not believe that this is the important factor, in context. they were just trying to manufacture a conflict.

i was previously providing them with the benefit of the doubt. i had to, in a deficit of evidence. but, they've proven that they're ridiculously dishonest - as i've proven that i'm brutally honest. i no longer believe a word they say. and, they no longer deserve the benefit of the doubt. this is going to have a large effect on how i behave. and, they may be in for a set of surprises, as my previously overly reasonable behaviour becomes that much less flexible and that much more intent on enforcing literal interpretations of the law.
 
everybody gets a chance with me. they blew theirs. and, i'm not nice to people that cross me or demonstrate themselves as dishonest. it's the trait i dislike the most in people, and the one i have the least patience for. the liars of the world can fucking choke.

i should get something or other done this morning. but if i don't get an update on my case, i'm going to have to start looking at contingency options.

here's the thing: i will obey a court order, because i need to protect my stuff, and because there's not any point of being dragged out by the sheriff. but, i'm still thinking i have a good chance of winning the case. so, i'm not going to pay for storage or get out until i know.

i hope the judge gets a response out soon, whatever it is. obviously, i want to stay here, until they leave....

(and, they told me over email that they are in fact selling for $500,000, which is kind of a joke - i'm not qualified to appraise, but the place is no doubt worth half that. i lived in a $500,000 house for a while as a late teen in a much hotter market, and this isn't it. am i going to have to wait for them to cut the price? for how fucking long?)

....but if i must go, please tell me asap - and give me as much time as possible to deal wtih it.

i wouldn't drag it out, either. if i'm told i have to be out by jan 1st, i'll try and leave by dec 1st. i want as much time as i can get. but that doesn't mean i'm here until the last day.

anyways.

i'm going to get a smoothie and get back to what i was doing, which was prepping the wave of stuff over 2002. 2001 is completely finished. if i can get 54 done today, i think i'm doing well. i need to ship 56, 58, 60, 62 and three more in the late 60s or low 70s. so, i'm getting to the end of this, here, too.

if i get until jan 1st or dec 1st, i'll have to finish the order first. if it's earlier than that, i don't know what i'm doing. and, if i don't get a response at all in the next 48 hours, i'm going to have to start to panic.

vlog for oct 22-oct 24, 2017, where i close inri043-inri053.

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inri043: written late 2000 & early 2001. the renders present here are all from either the early months of 2014, the second half of may, 2015 or the 11th/12th of october, 2017. minor instrumentation changes to facilitate a small wind section were implemented in late april, 2014. live guitars were layered into the final version over may 2014. four more mixes were added from may 19-26, 2015. five more mixes were added on oct 11/12, 2017. release finalized on oct 12, 2017.

inri044: written early 2001. drastically rearranged in june, 2014. rendered, arranged and performed over june and july, 2014. remixed and re-rendered several times over late may, 2015 and again over mid oct, 2017. this release cannot formally finalize at this time, but has been put into it's existing state as of oct 15, 2017.

inri045: recorded in the first part of 2001. sequenced as is in january, 2014.

inri046: written in the spring of 2001. lent out for a different project in jan, 2004. reconstructed in the first quarter of 2006, especially over march. the vst mix was added on jan 10, 2015 and the two guitar mixes were added on may 29, 2015. finalized as symph005 on oct 15, 2017.

inri047: written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. expanded and finalized over oct 15-16, 2017.

inri048: written in the summer of 2001. remembered over july, 2014. completed august-september, 2014. expanded and finalized on oct 16, 2017.

inri049: written and recorded in the fall of 2001. compiled on sept 6, 2014. expanded and finalized on oct 20-21, 2017.

inri050: written in the fall of 2001. rendered, remastered and remixed in late september and early october, 2014. the string mix was corrected for clicks on june 1, 2015, but unfortunately left accidentally inverted. this was corrected on oct 21, 2017. the lead track was re-rendered with the clickless string mix on oct 21, 2017. disc finalized on oct 21, 2017.

inri051: created in the fall of 2001. resequenced and rereleased on sept 7, 2014. disc finalized on oct 22, 2017.

inri052: tracks 1, 3 and 8 were written in 2001 and reinterpreted and completed in 2014. tracks 2 and 5 were interpreted and completed in 2001. track 4 was written in 2000 and reinterpreted and recorded in 2001. track 6 was written in 2001 and completed in 2006. track 7 was written in 1998, reinterpreted in 2001 and rendered in 2014. tracks 1-7 were sequenced on sept 9, 2014. final completion date is oct 3, 2014. refinalized as lp011 on oct 22, 2017.

inri053: written late 2001 and early 2002. this file is ripped from a cd-r that was burnt around 2002, as that was the option that would produce the most accurate reproduction of the original composition. republished without modification in 2014. on oct 23, 2017, the poem was added to the disc as an introduction to the track and the disc was subsequently closed and finalized as symph006 and lp012.

originally created from 2001-2002, but mostly in 2001. this compilation is dated to jan 20, 2002. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on oct 22, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

credits

released January 20, 2002

j - electric piano, drum & other programming, orchestral & other sequencing, classical & acoustic & electric guitars, ebow, digital & analog effects & treatments, electric bass, mandolin, organ, synthesizers, sound design, noise generators, cool edit synthesis, sampling, vocals, vocoders, digital wave editing, loops, equalization, production, composition.

sean - vocals, lyrics (inri048, inri049, inri053)
jon - guitar performance (inri048, inri049)

the various rendered electronic orchestras include acoustic bass, electric bass, synth bass, upright bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, steel string acoustic guitar, nylon guitar, guitar effects, banjo, harp, sitar, french horn, tuba, trumpet, trombone, brass ensemble, saxophone, soprano saxophone, orchestra hit, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, pizzicato strings, full string section, piano, synthesizers, synth pad, synthesizer effects, mellotron, organ, bamboo flute, clarinet, flute, piccolo, oboe, english horn, bassoon, voice, music box, tubular bells, bells, clavinet, kalimba, xylophone, glockenspiel, woodblock, vibraphone, marimba, taiko drums, detuned piano, pc card, drum kit, jazz drum kit, hand drums, melodic toms, orchestral drum kit, drum machines, hammered percussion, synthetic percussion and electronic drum kit. they also include choir. 

 

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/flac-dvd-disc-volume-4

republishing inri053

this came out of a two-person psychedelic folk project i was working in over late 2001 and into mid 2002. we had brainstormed the idea of a piece that slowly built itself up, like a wave, and that had sporadic pieces of poetry interspersed as it did so. of the two of us, i was the musician, and he was the poet; i generally produced the music by myself. however, my vision of the track proved to be much larger than his, to the point that the two ideas could not be effectively reconciled given the deficit of technology available to us (i simply couldn't find a way to get enough resources to condense the track to under ten minutes). that left me with this seventy minute ambient piece that has mostly stayed hidden in my closet over the last twelve years.

in 2014, i strongly contemplated reconstructing the short version out of existing material, but it would have required a rethink of the process that i felt would be invasive to the poet involved. the reality is that the music that i created was not well suited as accompaniment for the poem, and it should just be left at that. in oct of 2017, i added the poem to the disc, a capella, as an introduction to the track.

this is very much process music. it's built on 36 distinct loops of identical length (just under 57 seconds) that assemble the collage up on a loop by loop basis, hitting it's full point only in the 35th loop. the 36th loop does not fit into any of the patterns that define the first 35, but is nonetheless the climax of the piece. this is followed by a disassembling process that is precisely the reverse of the assembling process. together, this produces the effect of a long wave of sound washing over the listener.

aesthetically, it's likely clear that i had been listening to a lot of "kosmische" style synthesizer music of european origin. it's actually a key part of my musical style, so a bigger exploration of it's themes is not at all out of place. however, i generally prefer to take ideas from the genre and recontextualize them rather than delve into a full exploration. this is somewhat unique in my discography as being an album-length analog synthesizer work.

either as ambient or kosmische or process music, this is mostly meant as background music.

written late 2001 and early 2002. this file is ripped from a cd-r that was burnt around 2002, as that was the option that would produce the most accurate reproduction of the original composition. republished without modification in 2014. on oct 23, 2017, the poem was added to the disc as an introduction to the track and the disc was subsequently closed and finalized as symph006 and lp012. as always, please use headphones.

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2002, 2014, 2017). 

credits

released January 15, 2002

j - synthesizers, electric & acoustic guitars, electric bass guitar, digital wave editing, production, composition
sean - vocals, lyrics 

 

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inri002: originally written and recorded over 1996-1997. sequenced and mildly modified in dec, 2013. released dec 11, 2013. finalized on july 3, 2016. lp000.

inri015: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed and resequenced jan 6-10, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on aug 10, 2016. finalized on oct 10, 2016. lp001.

inri021: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1993-1999. initially constructed in this form in feb, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed and resequenced over november and december, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. finalized on dec 15, 2016. lp002.

inri023: constructed over 1998. compiled and remastered in late 2013. the first two tracks were corrected to stereo in sept, 2014. the last two tracks were added for re-release as a remix lp in dec, 2016. finalized on dec 17, 2016. lp003.

inri024: initially written and recorded between 1996-1999 and remixed over the summer of 2015, with a lengthy pause due to malfunctioning electronics. final compilation date is jan 3, 2016. finalized dec 17, 2016. lp004.

inri025: this idea was developed in parallel to the inriclaimed project over the summer of 2015 and first compiled on nov 27, 2016. finalized on dec 17, 2016. lp005.

inri032: recorded sporadically, and without cohesive intent, over '98 and '99. originally compiled in the fall of '99. augmented and minimally altered in january, 2014. finalized as lp006 on sept 21, 2017. as always, please use headphones - but note that they are especially mandatory for this recording.

inri033: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in dec, 1999. slightly resequenced in jan, 2014. finalized on sept 19, 2017. lp007.

inri035: initially written and recorded between 1996-1999 and remixed between 2013-2015. initially released as part zero of a three volume set on may 21, 2015. split into it's own release on june 14, 2015. finalized as lp008 on sept 29, 2017.

inri041: recorded over the space of the year 2000. remixed substantially in 2004, 2006, 2010 and 2014. existing version constructed in jan, 2014. finalized as lp009 on oct 9, 2017.

inri042: this record was recorded over the years 1999 and 2000, but did not take this form until mid september, 2017. the first track list dates to sept 14, 2017. these tracks are technically outtakes, but did not become outtakes until the remastering process removed them from their respective recordings. finalized as lp010 on oct 9, 2017.

inri052: tracks 1, 3 and 8 were written in 2001 and reinterpreted and completed in 2014. tracks 2 and 5 were interpreted and completed in 2001. track 4 was written in 2000 and reinterpreted and recorded in 2001. track 6 was written in 2001 and completed in 2006. track 7 was written in 1998, reinterpreted in 2001 and rendered in 2014. tracks 1-7 were sequenced on sept 9, 2014. final completion date is oct 3, 2014. refinalized as lp011 on oct 22, 2017.

originally created from 1996-2001. this compilation is dated to dec 16, 2001. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on oct 23, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

credits

released December 16, 2001

j - guitars of all types (electric, acoustic, classical), ebow, effects, pick scrapes, mandolin, bass, bass synth, keyboards, organ, synthesizers, piano, drum & other programming, drum kits, orchestral & other sequencing, flute, sampling, vocals, vocal relics, mic noises, octavers, cool edit synthesis, windows 95 sound recorder, found sounds, strategies, soundraider, hammerhead, noise generators, noise reduction, sound design, light-wave synthesis, generative synthesis, granular synthesis, generative percussion, metronome, tapes, digital & analog effects processing, treatments, digital wave editing, loops, films, a broken tape deck, a broken equalizer, chance, coughs, text-to-speech synthesis, remixes, reconstructions, reinterpretations, composition, production

the star trek sample in 'gravity's rainbow' is from the episode "errand of mercy" (mar 23, 1967).

the various rendered electronic orchestras include acoustic bass, electric bass, synth bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, steel string acoustic guitar, nylon guitar, ukelele, sitar, trumpet, trombone, brass ensemble, orchestra hit, saxophone, violin, cello, viola, contrabass, pizzicato strings, string ensemble, synth pads, piano, synthesizers, synthesizer effects, mellotron, organ, bamboo flute, clarinet, flute, voice, music box, tubular bells, bells, tinkle bells, clavinet, kalimba, theremin, drum kit, hand drums, taiko drums, drum machines, gongs and electronic drums. 

 

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/lps-only-volume-1

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inri038: written and recorded, 1999-2001. track 3 was reconstructed out of existing sound in june, 2004. initially sequenced in jan, 2014. four new mixes (maximal mix (2017), electronics only mix (2015), single mix for lp010 (2017), full instrumental mix from deny everything (2014)) were added on oct 5, 2017; release subsequently closed.

inri043: written late 2000 & early 2001. the renders present here are all from either the early months of 2014, the second half of may, 2015 or the 11th/12th of october, 2017. minor instrumentation changes to facilitate a small wind section were implemented in late april, 2014. live guitars were layered into the final version over may 2014. four more mixes were added from may 19-26, 2015. five more mixes were added on oct 11/12, 2017. release finalized on oct 12, 2017.

inri044: written early 2001. drastically rearranged in june, 2014. rendered, arranged and performed over june and july, 2014. remixed and re-rendered several times over late may, 2015 and again over mid oct, 2017. this release cannot formally finalize at this time, but has been put into it's existing state as of oct 15, 2017.

inri045: recorded in the first part of 2001. sequenced as is in january, 2014.

inri046: written in the spring of 2001. lent out for a different project in jan, 2004. reconstructed in the first quarter of 2006, especially over march. the vst mix was added on jan 10, 2015 and the two guitar mixes were added on may 29, 2015. finalized as symph005 on oct 15, 2017.

inri047: written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. expanded and finalized over oct 15-16, 2017.

inri050: written in the fall of 2001. rendered, remastered and remixed in late september and early october, 2014. the string mix was corrected for clicks on june 1, 2015, but unfortunately left accidentally inverted. this was corrected on oct 21, 2017. the lead track was re-rendered with the clickless string mix on oct 21, 2017. disc finalized on oct 21, 2017.

inri052: tracks 1, 3 and 8 were written in 2001 and reinterpreted and completed in 2014. tracks 2 and 5 were interpreted and completed in 2001. track 4 was written in 2000 and reinterpreted and recorded in 2001. track 6 was written in 2001 and completed in 2006. track 7 was written in 1998, reinterpreted in 2001 and rendered in 2014. tracks 1-7 were sequenced on sept 9, 2014. final completion date is oct 3, 2014. refinalized as lp011 on oct 22, 2017.

originally created from 1999-2001. this compilation is dated to dec 15, 2001. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2017. compilation finalized on oct 23, 2017. as always, please use headphones. 

credits

released December 15, 2001

j - electric & acoustic & classical guitars, ebow, effects, bass, synthesizers, electric piano, organ, orchestral & other sequencing, drum & other programming, vocals, vocoders, sound design, sampling, digital effects & treatments, digital wave editing, loops, composition, production

the rendered electronic orchestras variously include piano, acoustic bass, electric bass, synth bass, upright bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, other guitar effects, steel string acoustic guitar, nylon string classical guitar, harp, sitar, banjo, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, pizzicato strings, mellotron, french horn, trumpet, trombone, tuba, soprano saxophone, generalized brass section, oboe, english horn, bassoon, synthesizers, synthesizer effects, synth pads, clarinet, flute, piccolo, bamboo flute, xylophone, glockenspiel, vibraphone, music box, clavinet, kalimba, detuned piano, woodblock, tubular bells, bells, orchestra hit, jazz drum kit, hand drums, melodic toms, orchestral drum kit, hammered percussion, marimba, taiko drum, synthetic percussion, drum machine, pc card and electronic drum kit. they also include choir. 

 

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-box-set

i've just been hard at work, with little to really comment on.

there's supposed to be an inspection today. i pushed a curve ball in throwing a possible asbestos remediation at them. that would essentially condemn the building. they're late. curious.

i don't know what they're actually up to.

no word on the case yet.

i've got up to inri053 and aleph-11 done, except cover art for the last four releases: aleph-9 to aleph-11, and inri053. that's next, while i wait.

this is a full record of material documenting tracks written in 2001 that were in a more "serious" style and completed from 2001-2014.

the intent with the core of the material (1,3,6,7,8) was for it to be performed by live musicians one day. in early 2014, i came to the conclusion that this was not going to ever happen and was pleasantly surprised to learn that the technology had improved enough for a realistic presentation of the material using sequencers. these versions of (1,3,6) also include live guitars.

tracks 2 and 5 were salvaged from an aborted project meant to reinterpret classical guitar music as modern noise. the project was permanently aborted due to the loss of the sheet music that was necessary to finish it.

track 4 is an electric folk tune with heavy counterpoint that i was playing live as a party trick at the time.

the ordering is roughly chronological, based on the date the track took the form it exists in. tracks 1, 3 and 8 were written in 2001 and reinterpreted and completed in 2014. tracks 2 and 5 were interpreted and completed in 2001. track 4 was written in 2000 and reinterpreted and recorded in 2001. track 6 was written in 2001 and completed in 2006. track 7 was written in 1998, reinterpreted in 2001 and rendered in 2014. tracks 1-7 were sequenced on sept 9, 2014. final completion date is oct 3, 2014. refinalized as lp011 on oct 22, 2017. this is my fifth official record; as always, please use headphones.

credits

released December 1, 2001

j - electric piano, programming, classical & acoustic & electric guitars, ebow, digital & analog effects & treatments, organ, synthesizers, sound design, sampling, vocals, digital wave editing, loops, production, composition.

the various rendered electronic orchestras include acoustic bass, electric bass, synth bass, distorted electric guitar, clean electric guitar, steel string acoustic guitar, nylon guitar, trumpet, trombone, brass ensemble, orchestra hit, violin, cello, viola, contrabass, piano, synthesizers, mellotron, organ, bamboo flute, clarinet, flute, voice, music box, bells, clavinet, kalimba, drum kit, hand drums, drum machines and electronic drums.

finalizing inri051

i don't have an exact date for these files, so i'm picking november 11th. as others were, i was concerned about the president abolishing the magna carta after 9/11 and congress doing little more than helping him do it. however, this was meant to be a more encompassing project that combined harsh noise with political sampling that was pushing an anarchist agenda. the name of the project (ftaa) was chosen as a pun - it could either be the free trade agreement of the americas or about fueling true anarchy in the americas. i ended up dropping the sampling aspect and just focusing on the noise for the project's completion (which is the ftaa release in mid 2004: jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ftaa ), so i'm going to upload these two pilot tracks (with the sampling in tact) as an introductory single and place them in this more topical chronological space.

in hindsight, i think there's something profound about juxtaposing the fair trade movement with the 9/11 attacks as, looking back, it really sucked the life out of the movement.

created in the fall of 2001. resequenced and rereleased on sept 7, 2014. disc finalized on oct 22, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

these tracks appear without samples on my seventh record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ftaa

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2014, 2017). 

credits

released November 11, 2001

j - noise generators, cool edit, sequencers, guitars (electric, nylon, acoustic), mandolin, effects & processing, digital wave editing, sampling, production

this was a piece i wrote up in the fall of 2001. i can't remember exactly what the root of it was, but it had something to do with a voice-leading assignment for what was the equivalent of a course in music theory 101. the root of the piece may consequently come from what was presented to me. i can't recall exactly - but i believe the assignment was to build the different voices up.

my negative relationship with music theory is stated throughout this page and was well established well before the end of 2001. i had an interest in the music theory course for the purposes of deconstructing the theory - in the context of writing, specifically, and not performing. i actually have one of those classic stories - i failed this course. it is actually the _only_ course i have _ever_ legitimately received an _F_ in. hey, if einstein can fail math, i can fail music theory.

the story actually revolves around sight-reading aspect of the course, and specifically it's vocal content. there were three aspects of the course (theory, vocal sight-reading and african drumming which i'm thinking was meant to be a rhythmic component but was really just a ridiculous waste of time). i really wish they would have let me sight read on a guitar, or even a piano, because i'm just simply not a talented singer; i've never had aspirations to become one, and i had a lot of problems controlling my vocals. even with that being said, the reality is that i had a very low level of _interest_ in this. i probably could have passed the course if i spent less time on abstract algebra and more time singing in the mirror, but i just couldn't be bothered...

i really disapprove of the way the course was designed. i was interested in learning about music theory, and needed the course as a pre-req for more advanced courses, which i never ended up taking. i still don't fully understand why i had to pass a singing exam to take further composition courses. the best answer i got was that the school didn't want graduates who couldn't pass a singing exam, but i was at no point enrolled in a b. music so it's a pretty weak response.

anyways, this was a voice-leading assignment that i perverted into something mildly atonal and then built up into something else. you can hear it if you listen, except that it's all "wrong". i'd have to sit down and analyse it to come to a more detailed exposition on it's "wrongness", and i'm not going to, but it's not hard to hear how "wrong" it is, either.

i was clearly listening to a lot of glass at the time, but this goes beyond his medievalism. i'm using so many "wrong" notes that it's ultimately just chromatic - although there's no tone rows or anything that's formally serialist about it. it's not meant to abolish the structure so much as it's meant to just flaunt the rules. that gives it an almost satanic feel, in the context of a vocal piece using "forbidden" intervals.

but, looking back, i think that what the piece really explores is existential anguish. i was in the second year of a math degree (after switching from physics after switching from software engineering) and really had little idea where i was going with it. i was considering switching into music and probably would have had i not failed the singing exam. the thing is i actually knew i was going to fail the course at that point, and was just feeling lost as a result of it. i ended up in math as this sort of default choice, vaguely thinking i might end up teaching somewhere but not having any real interest in it...

so much choice, so few options. i suppose that this is how i expressed what i was feeling about this reality at the time.

i can't remember the exact way this happened, but i believe the piece was initially written for voice (as a voice-leading assignment) and then expanded into further voices and then converted into a composition for nine instruments. i believe the primary reason i converted it from a vocal piece is that i ended up writing well outside a realistic vocal range, but i've kept the electronic choir parts as they are because i'm not really restricted to reality in this way. i've picked halloween as the date, but that's symbolic - it was around then, anyway. it would have been around december that it was put aside, because i don't remember working on it after i moved.

i've included the midi files of the original composition, if you'd like to mess with it on your own.

written in the fall of 2001. rendered, remastered and remixed in late september and early october, 2014. the string mix was corrected for clicks on june 1, 2015, but unfortunately left accidentally inverted. this was corrected on oct 21, 2017. the lead track was re-rendered with the clickless string mix on oct 21, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

the album version of the track (track 1) appears on my fifth record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2014, 2015, 2017). 

credits

released October 31, 2001

j - programming, effects, mixing, production, composition.

the various rendered electronic orchestras include voice, piano, bells, synthesizer, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, electric bass and guitar. 

republishing inri049

rabit is wolf arose accidentally from the cynicide project (inri048), but produced far more material in the end. what happened was sean and i showed up to a few jam sessions and the guitarist (jon - it was his band) didn't, so we started writing some material without him...

initially, the intent was to include rather than exclude jon but he quickly developed a disinterest due to a variety of obvious if never fully articulated reasons. i was playing guitar parts on the demos, which he couldn't deal with. we were doing joy division songs, which were outside of his sphere of interest. we were writing without him, which made him feel unimportant. we were talking about songs without drums, which he wasn't interested in at all. etc. however, he did record a guitar part (that i wrote) that was never replaced.

upon release in 2014, this was a collection of demos from the first month of rabit is wolf, which included multiple versions of the title track and a joy division cover. in the end, none of this would be released in the form it's in here (which was only available for download), but it created a cohesive (if short) introduction to what followed that was self-contained in a historical context. stated differently, this was the first (post-punk) incarnation of rabit is wolf.

in oct of 2017, this release was expanded to act as a comprehensive exploration of this track and made available for physical purchase. seven further versions were added: three from 2002, three from 2014/2015 and one from 2010. disc finalized on oct 21, 2017.

i don't analyse sean's lyrics, but the subject matter is clearly that of contemplating suicide - i believe from the perspective of an imagined character.

written and recorded in the fall of 2001. compiled on sept 6, 2014. expanded and finalized on oct 20-21, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

the album version of the track (track 11) appears on the rabit is wolf demo:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/rabit-is-wolf

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2002, 2010, 2014, 2015, 2017). 

credits

released October 15, 2001

j - electric bass guitar, electric & acoustic guitars, analog & digital effects & processing, synthesizers, score writing, writing, production
sean - vocals, lyrics, writing

jon - some extra guitar performance (6-8, 10-11, 13) 

so, what am i doing now?

well, i spent the morning looking through listings and - minus the blurry thinking on the possibility of renting office space - there's still nothing on the market that looks preferable to this place.

there's nothing happening in detroit that i want to go to this weekend. and, the temperature just collapsed, out of nowhere - it was supposed to be warm today. the chelsea wolfe show on sunday is sold out (that club never sells out. weird.). boris on wednesday is possible.

i think i'm going to spend the weekend closing records and reevaluate things on monday.

i don't know the outcome of the court case, but it seems like i'm going to be putting things in storage for a while, if i lost.

that was a brawl.

n12s are probably the hardest thing a tenant can fight - there's a certain concept of entitlement underlying them that has to be overturned by a demonstration of bad faith, an appeal to rigour in the burden of proof and a little bit of good luck in compassion from the judge on s. 83 grounds. that was my argument. and, i made it as well as i could.

if i lost, i put up a helluva scrap. and, i have to think that if she was going to throw me out, she would have done it on the spot.

but, i got a little bit of extra luck: this landlord is legitimately daft. she didn't want to listen to her counsel, and she gave me a dozen openings when she didn't need to. some of it was necessitated by a need to bullshit one way or the other: for example, the excuse they gave about moving mom in had to do with her having lifelong epilepsy, but there was a unit open upstairs in july, so what they really had to do was manufacture an event between july 1 and august 30th, but they instead pretended they planned this all along, which let me question why they didn't move mom into the open unit. the counsel was cringing. i noticed. the judge noticed. i also caught her in an open lie and think i managed to convince the judge of it, which was so key - and totally unneeded on her behalf. again: she clearly didn't understand what was going on around her, and it got her into some messes that might end up being the difference.

but, as mentioned, i had a difficult task in front of me, and i can only hope i pulled it off.

the judge will type up a decision some time next week and mail it out the week after that. if i'm out, i'll get at least 11 days. but, she's obligated to consider extending this due to my situation, which is legitimately pretty dire.

i think this is accurate: we went the distance. and, the judge will need to rule on a tko. it's either going to come down to her entitlements overpowering everything, or the judge is going to flat out call bullshit.

so, i wanted to stay up all day so i could sleep tonight, but that didn't actually happen: the headache came back in this morning, and i ended up sleeping all day.

it's not friday. but, there's a stench in here. i'm going to have to get some activated charcoal right after i win the case. i've been waiting, as i didn't want to buy it if i have to leave, but it's clear at this point that it will be necessary.

i'm going to eat. i may go back to sleep.

it's not likely that i'll get anything at all done before i get back from court.

i was not a fan of the tragically hip - i found them to be excessively pretentious and excruciatingly boring - and i'm not going to pretend that i was.

Since this is the Landlord’s application, the Landlord bears the burden of proving, on a balance of probabilities that her son genuinely intends to move into the premises.  The Landlord failed to prove on a balance of probabilities that it is more likely than not that her son does genuinely intend to move into the premises.  Since the Landlord failed to meet the burden of proof, the Landlord’s application must be dismissed.

this is very reassuring to read from the most likely adjudicator on the case.

https://www.canlii.org/en/on/onltb/doc/2017/2017canlii60235/2017canlii60235.html?searchUrlHash=AAAAAQANbjEyIGFmZmlkYXZpdAAAAAAB&resultIndex=5

...considering that there's still no affidavit. i'll call one more time tonight, i guess before i crash.  it looks like i'm going to get to cross-examine, as they're going to do it in real-time. i'm hoping it's the mom as that's going to be fun to rip apart. "you're going to pay your ex-husband rent?". but, something i didn't think was viable was the idea that it could be the guy upstairs - the father. that struck me as absurd on it's face, but there are cases where parents take over basement units for themselves, albeit not separate ones like this. see, here's the thing: he has threatened me with eviction repeatedly. hey, he ran his mouth off and has to deal with it - but it's his attitude that's the problem in the first place.

i'm confident, but i can't get cocky. and, if it goes to trial, which i am not convinced it will, then this is far from over, one way or the other. i think this guy is going to get overwhelmed by the stack of paper i give him, freak out and fold.

and, that would be smart.

if he's smart, he'll know when to fold.

i was up early in the evening, did the shopping i needed to do for the rest of the month (minus peppers, which were bad, and eggs, which i forgot), dotted the rest of the is i needed for the case (mostly burning the disc, and making sure i have extra emails on usb if i need to print on the spot) and then got distracted at canlii.

i read dozens of cases through and there's a common theme: n12s are hard to beat, unless the landlord fucks up in leaving behind evidence, and this one has done quite a bit of that. i have eight documented threats of eviction - that is the kind of thing that helps. something else that helps is evidence demonstrating that the landlord is irritated or angry about being forced to do repairs, which is actually what one of my n5s was: she cluelessly filed an n5 requesting i be evicted for asking her to landlord, which is exactly what i need to prove to the court. the large amount of conflict is the other thing i need to demonstrate. i also have examples of her behaving in bad faith. i even have evidence suggesting she wants to sell (two fire inspections and an appraisal in the same week). nobody wants this, but i couldn't ask for a better situation, if i have to have it. the few cases that i was able to find that seem similar led to a dismissal.

even so, if i somehow lose, the outcome is usually an extension. i can also claim hardship, given that i live on odsp. that's usually good for a few months, and by then the building might be sold, which should give me time to appeal.

i need to push myself to stay awake until late in the afternoon so i'm up fresh on thursday morning. i think i've got together everything i can get together. so, i should get some work done over the next few hours.

i'm not going to ship before thursday. it will be soon, though. 48 will be printed tonight, at least.

i'm glad i gave myself a few days, but that didn't take as long as i feared it would.

i have a mountain of evidence to sort through, designed to question whether they're acting in good faith, which i think they clearly aren't.

i'm expecting the judge to throw the case out, if the paralegal even lets it get there.

this was a ploy cooked up to generate a settlement. there's no chance i'm going to sign on to this: the choices are that they can walk away and avoid a counter-suit, or they can go through with it and suffer the consequences.

they are not intelligent people, and i do not expect them to make a smart choice.

vlog for oct 15, 2017, where i augment inri047 & inri048 before putting closing on hold for a few days.

republishing inri048

this track represents somewhat of a refocus, but it never found itself to fruition in the way it was meant to.

over the summer of 2001, a friend of a friend decided he wanted to start a band and asked me to play bass. now, we didn't really have a lot in common besides both being musicians. i was spiralling out into obscure independent music, and he was into all the mainstream rock bands. 2001 was the point where grunge was losing it's last bit of mainstream potential, and giving way to nu metal and various watered down, corporatized offshoots of hardcore. so, i was sitting around listening to tortoise and writing jazz compositions and he was sitting around listening to limp bizkit and writing mtv/radio rock. how could this legitimately work?

there was a small amount of overlap, centred mostly around tool. it so happened to be that tool had just released a new record, we were both listening to it and neither of us really had anybody else to talk to about it. so, something formed out of that.

now, when you're an isolated twenty year old that's never been lucky enough to meet another musician you can start a band with, you take what you can get. it seemed implausible that it was going anywhere, but wasn't that the case for every other band that ever went anywhere when they first started off? i don't think either of us thought we were natural creative partners, but we had a set of common goals and if we could put aside our differences...

see, the thing is i knew that the only way anything was going to happen is if i sat down and recorded a bunch of stuff. but, i also knew that this is a guy that defines himself in terms of his oversized ego and that the whole purpose of it from his perspective was to give himself a way to explore it. that's not the worst trait to have if you want to start a band, either. my overwhelmingly shy introversion hasn't exactly got me filling stadiums, has it? nor is it ever going to, and i realized it even at that stage. so, a natural role would be for me to play the producer (along with the bass guitar) while he throws some stuff at me. if that meant i'd be doing 90% of the actual recording, that would be ok, but i realized i had to let him provide the actual song structures or he'd storm off and pout about it.

so, i waited for him to provide some material. and waited. eventually it became clear that he didn't actually have any serious songs. we did a few demos, but he could barely play what he was trying to demo and the tracks were not of a gigging quality level.

in the mean time, he'd recruited a guitarist. he kept saying he was talking to a drummer (no drummer ever appeared), and he also recruited another friend of a friend as a singer. so, we had what seemed like a full band, if you include the imaginary drummer. what i saw was an opportunity. if he wasn't going to write some songs, i guess i'd have to...

the other guitarist almost immediately dropped out, and the whole project really fell apart rather quickly when the guy that initiated the whole thing stopped showing up to practice. it was several weeks in a row that only the singer and i showed up. i had a few songs i had written, so we started working on those instead and that became rabit is wolf. predictably, there was much pouting.

that leaves this particular song in an isolated limbo. when it was reworked for rabit is wolf (inri057), it took on the epic and experimental nature i was exploring at the time and lost the crux of itself as a stadium rock song. i feel something valuable was lost in this process, if for no other reason that this is so dramatically different than anything else i was doing at the time.

thankfully, i still have the original drum files, and i remember how to play the guitar part, so it's simply a process of recreating it. the raw mix sounds exactly as the track did in 2001. the complete mix takes it to it's final conclusion.

a number of literal remixes were added on oct 16, 2017, including the electronics only mix for the ry30 disc, from dec 27, 2015.

the ep also includes some files from 2001 that are attached to the initial cynicide project.

written in the summer of 2001. remembered over july, 2014. completed august-september, 2014. released sept 24, 2014. expanded, finalized and re-released on oct 16, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

credits

released september 16, 2001

j - electric guitars, analog & digital effects & processing, electric bass guitar, synthesizers, orchestral & other sequencing, drum programming, digital wave editing, sampling, loops, equalization, vocals (8), production

the rendered electronic orchestra includes tuba, saxophone, flute, clarinet, orchestra hit, piano, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and various full string sections.

sean - vocals (track 9)

jon - acoustic guitar (track 9)